||[Dec. 9th, 2003|04:01 pm]
|||||harry potter music stuck in head from band||]|
today...well it was better than yesterday. remember how i said that i wasn't going to talk to mike? well, yeh, once again, there goes THAT. but we talked, and now this is a more "playful" war. like, it's not "i hate you so lemme fling poo". i love all this snow. we're having like snowball fights in every class. and in the halls. but study was good, in some ways. boys haven't evolved much from monkeys. it was so amusing how like the guys were gathering and being so effing shady. you could tell they were up to no good. the funniest was when [i think] tom threw a muffin ball and it hit the half-wall and just went -SPLAT- and like half of it was stuck to the wall and the rest was on the floor. we were dying when we saw that. [[sigh]] i'm gonna miss that study next semester.
chem was nice too. me and mike got everything out and then i taught him how to draw stars and we talked about harry potter!! he likes harry potter!!! omg we were talking about book five and the next movie and !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm glad everything's good now. after school was fun..."come be a star..."
so yeh, today was good, yesterday sucked. right after i typed that whole thing, nick came online and i.med me and like it was something i needed. just everything was too much for me. it's hard to explain and he kind of gets it. blah. i wish i was not h e r e.
i was reading jackel's entry and she said something like it was winter and everybody was in shitty moods and it's defintaley [i really gotta learn to spell that word] true. i don't know about everybody else, but from my end, it's the fact that winter/christmas/the holidays, it's always portrayed with couples getting each other the perfect gift/sitting by the fire/kissing under mistletoe/walking in the woods on a snowy day and you know what? it's just not happening. once again. i mean, nobody wants to be lonely during this season that is all about together-ness. but you know what? right now, i'm not too sure if i actually even want another relationship-type deal. i mean, i've been fucking up relationships for awhile now, but it's just this whole string of them in the past six months or so. i just can't deal with...anything. i still feel like shit for the whole ben thing. i thought things were better, but they're not. typical my life sort of deal. i went to i.m him and he's like "i don't feel like talking to you." it's the same sort of thing he said when everything started going downhill. like the same line. just, months later.
speaking of relationships and everything...what is elissa up to? trying to ruin my life? it's not like i like him... ha. at lunch today, she wanted to beat up this kid cause he said, "adam hates rejection so he sunk lower." i'm not going to comment.
i'm sad. i'm worried about my dog. yeh, he's stupid and all, but still. he can't walk up the stairs anymore and all he does is sleep. it makes me sad. i <3 my overgrown puppy.
i have a lot of spanish homework. and my last driving hour. so, adios amigos!